the end draws near

It feels good that you've all been following Max's and my relationship posts! We both have certainly learned a lot from each other through this experience! it has been some very deep intense work for both of us and we have both found a security in being able to share it openly with everyone. It has helped us to process it and enabled us to stay open, raw, vulnerable, exposed with each other and with all of you! I can feel myself getting crazier and crazier as the end of it gets closer. I am incredibly torn to have it end (May 20). On the one hand, it will be a relief because the work of digging through and bringing up our most painful shit is quite excruciating! On the other hand, I can feel myself grieving it like the loss of anything and I am fighting to stay present. It is hard. I am grateful