I posted this to Joe's wall

This was after a moment where I was energetically killing Joe with my resentment. In truth, I think it was even during sex! I was resentful that sex wasn't easier for us and has been so hugely confronting. Since we have been doing sex as a practice, we don't necessarily feel very loving and turned on initially in most instances. Fortunately, the sex actually helps us to find the resonance underneath the hostility and hurt feelings and brings us back to a place where we can connect with each other again.  I highly recommend the sex as a practice tool! It works amazingly well! I was super resistant in this moment and was killing him energetically.  I want to say it was unconscious, but I knew that I was doing it, so that is not entirely true. What I didn't know was that he knew it too! He gently called me on it by simply saying "stop it." This and our commitment to continuing to surrender to the love and connection rather than our games that keep us from it, snapped me back to an awareness of what I was doing. I was able to surrender and I am grateful. 

We are both such incredibly sensitive and potent energetic beings, both because we have cultivated that in the practice or orgasmic meditation and because we were born this way. Couple that with our deeply intimate connection, and it is easy to cause some energetic wreckage pretty quickly.  

POST:

Thank you for being sensitive enough to feel when I am killing you. Thank you for being brave enough to name it. Thank you for being strong enough to handle me. Thank you for being loving enough to speak to my powerful woman who brings me back to the love that's underneath.



our following comments.
Joe Carr: You're welcome. Thank you for calling out my powerful man, and giving him the ride of his life.
Keri Denheeten I am embarrassed to be seen there with you this morning and yet so grateful to you for calling me back to you and grateful to my inner wisdom that can remember the truth is that I love you and I don't want to hurt you or lash out from my own anger and pain. 
Do you know what moment I am talking about specifically? I am always amazed at your witchy level of sensitivity. You read my mind and see my soul
Joe Carr Yes I know.