Rawness encompassed in a poem by Joe Carr

I resent Keri Denheeten like I resent my feminine
The unpredictability
The volatility
The irrational emotion
The tightness, sharpness, and vindictiveness 
The apparent impossibility of ever pleasing her

I love Keri like I love my feminine
The spontaneity
The electricity
The sexiness
The raw power
The endless generous compassionate nurturing love

I am scared of her
I want to surrender to her
I want to smash her head into the pavement
I want to worship her
I want to dominate her
I want to make love to her
I want to trust her intuition
I want to let her lead

I am in relationship with Keri to build a relationship with myself
I love her in order to love me
Every time I avoid, criticize, attack, or blame her
I harm myself

Keri
I surrender
To you
To me
To the feminine

And
to
Freedom